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Subject 8437 responded to one of the verbal quiz questions with the correct answer and my first name. I did not provide confirmation of my name. I did not react at all, which, looking back, might very well have been all the confirmation that Subject 8437 needed. I was not jarred by the sound of my own name the way one would expect if someone called you by an incorrect name. All the proper protocols have been followed and I can not explain how Subject 8437 gleaned this information. Hearing tests out at the extreme of human normal but that is not enough to have heard my name in the staff's common rooms. I will not type what I am thinking. Even with what we are attempting to create through this process, I cannot bring myself to believe that even a Perfected human could be capable of that. We should reassess the reaction time test data to compare nerve-muscle reaction with visual and auditory prompts.
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Subject 8437 now speaks fluent Spanish. I am now banned from the vicinity of the living or testing facilities now that Subject 8437 knows Spanish. We introduced an intern with limited knowledge of the testing process but who happened to be proficient in the language. Subject 8437, as hard as it may be to believe, is apparently telepathic. I can't believe I just typed that. A special committee has been formed to go over all the data from scratch to determine when this ability may have developed. Another committee is going over every single component of the Perfected process in an attempt to determine how we could have engendered this ability.
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Colonel Sanders - may I take this moment to say that this is the worst code name ever for our Marine liaison, but she seems to actually enjoy it. At any rate, she has been campaigning to have Subject 8437 spar with combat trained Marines. She posits that with the unexplained telepathy reaction times would have to be better when faced with live opponents versus the automated antagonists provided during the original testing parameters. Subject 8437 has not faced living opponents to this point and there is a concern that he could be reticent. Colonel Sanders points out that at some point that potential reticence was going to have to be over come. I have a new concern. If Subject 8437 has actually developed telepathic abilities, will lethal performance actually be possible?
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Subject 8437 asked an intern to define freedom. The intern stood mute - as required by protocol whenever Subject 8437 addresses anyone other than a Proctor. Under the current circumstances, that was not enough. The intern was interrogated for 16 hours on what she was thinking just before the question was asked and immediately following the question. I have listened to the transcripts and I have no idea what was gained through any of it. What do you think of when someone asks you about freedom? Can you express it all in words? Do you even think about freedom? Or does your mind jump from image to image to sounds to concepts to speeches to experiences? How do you express all of that in a poorly lit room with three interrogators?
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One of the Proctors is dead. The man walked into the cafeteria, paid good money for two servings of the strawberry shortcake, and sat down and ate them both in huge mouthfuls and then he fell over dead. The man was deathly allergic to strawberries. He had carried an epi-pen since he was four years old. The official story is that it was suicide by strawberry.
I have concerns. We were not intending to create a telepath. We have no idea how such a thing would work. Is it like sight? Can he sense our thoughts and then blink or "close his eyes" and the data from our minds turns off? Can he choose what thoughts he examines the way we choose what we look at with our eyes? Or is it more like hearing? Are our thoughts always bombarding him? Does he have to learn to tone us out like a couple having a conversation in a busy cafeteria? And would a telepath just be able to listen?
We have gone too far. Our best intentions and all our plans have not prepared us for this. I need another dirnk.
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I am sorry. So very sorry. It was all a lie. It was all designed to keep the government funds rolling in. This "project" started out as a way to perfect humans in ways that the military found valuable and that I hoped would advance the species in ways that the military could not dream of. But, after a few initial successes that could be replicated with a proper mix of human growth hormone and steroids, the results started drying up and that brought on threats that the funding would start drying up as well. I had gotten used to the money and the lifestyle that came with it.
Colonel Sanders - Laura figured out what I was doing. That was when I decided to arrange her mishap with her insulin. I knew I could get away with it and I have to this point. But I had not taken into account the guilt. I am not this person. I was never meant to be this person. All of the "subjects", the ones who were not hired actors but legitimate patients, have been freed with enough hard cash to find another life since they can never go back to their old ones.
This account with the most recent of my fraudulent journal entries will be released to the press, the government, and the board of directors of the companies who were most heavily invested in this project. It just got so out of hand. To keep the money my claims had to become more and more encouraging to generate the funds that I needed. The "results" went beyond the physical and even into the realm of science fiction. God, I can't believe I sent up reports detailing telepathy. Oh, the greed of necio men.
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